Posted in funny, self reflection, spirituality on March 30, 2008 | No Comments »
Now I know this happens to some people. And I’m not trying to make light of it, but some interesting things come when the subject of death enters a conversation. Some friends and I were sitting around Friday night, having a beer at a local bar, when the idea of “What would you do if [...]
Posted in beauty ideal, body image, self reflection, spirituality on March 25, 2008 | No Comments »
Two things happened yesterday. 1) I actually began to KNOW that if I was skinnier, I wouldn’t be happier or better. I knew it intellectually, I knew it, but I hadn’t yet REALLY had it penetrate into my real knowing. Its an amazing feeling. I could see myself as that much smaller, and knew that all [...]
Posted in adolescent girls, beauty ideal, body image, diet, eating disorder, feminism, food, self reflection, skinny, spirituality on February 18, 2008 | No Comments »
While running today, the idea of my story came up. Lately I’ve found myself having flashbacks to moments that had then faded into my history as unremarkable. The moments that have added up to where I am now, mostly dealing with weight, beauty and how and when I learned the things I was “supposed” to [...]
Posted in body image, fat, fat acceptance, self reflection, spirituality on February 17, 2008 | 1 Comment »
A person, and teacher, who I admire greatly, once told me that I had “one of the greatest senses of justice” he’d ever encountered. I start with this not in a self-congratulatory way, but to illustrate how intertwined oppression is. I began with sexism, seeing it very truely active in my own white girl life. [...]
Posted in 4363770, body image, eating disorder, feminism, self reflection, spirituality on February 10, 2008 | No Comments »
But this blog is starting to look too academic from the last few posts, let’s keep me human. I was talking to my boyfriend last night (which was nice, I’m running around like a maniac these days, traveling- so just hanging is nice!) What were we talking about? Well he has this amazing self confidence- perhaps [...]
Posted in body image, eating disorder, feminism, food, spirituality on January 31, 2008 | No Comments »
Ok, here’s a piece I had to jot down for futher exploration-
feeling good- how can we feel good about our souls? About who we really are? Spiritually it means removing barriers like believing a physical body- and I believe to combat the identidy of women as valued by their bodies, we should find alternate ways [...]
Posted in diet, eating disorder, fat, fat acceptance, feminism, food, skinny, spirituality on January 29, 2008 | No Comments »
Though I really ripped apart intuitive eating and other forms of eating disorder therapy yeasterday, I’m a bit calmer now, and would like to clarify a bit.
Its not that intuitive eating is bad at all- if we could all tune into our bodies, it would be a wonderful thing. The problem is that before getting [...]
Posted in diet, eating disorder, fat, fat acceptance, feminism, food, skinny, spirituality on January 29, 2008 | No Comments »
the following is unedited rambling, enjoy
The message of every eating disorder help book I’ve ever encountered was this- we understand your problem, we’re here to help, its ok, and we’ll fix you. In the end, I always felt like the author wanted to heal me so much, that they had turned healing into someone that [...]
Posted in abortion, feminism, spirituality on January 22, 2008 | No Comments »
Abortion is a pretty sad thing, wouldn’t it be great to live in a world where each pregnancy was desired and each child was born into a loving and supportive world? It would be fantastic to live in a world where abortion was illogical and never needed. But its DAMN great that women have the choice, considering [...]
Posted in diet, eating disorder, feminism, spirituality on January 22, 2008 | No Comments »
I’ve dabbled a lot in a ACIM, Marianne Williamson’s guidance through it is the best I’ve found yet. The MAJOR theme that has been helpful is bringing darkness out, being courageous enough to acknowledge true feelings, in order to heal them. So lately, I’ve been praying. “Dear God, please see how much fear and anguish I [...]
